Logan is Awesome!!!!

Let me just tell you all what a awesome kid I have. He is truly amazing. He excelled in all subjects and improved in every area of his report card. Logan we are sooooooooo proud of the little man you are becoming. We are proud of your drive to want to good in school, and all that you do. You are truly a special spirit, and I am so glad you chose this family. You are definitely a intricate and vital part of our family. You are so helpful and a great son, and big brother, and apparently a great student. Way to go!!! We love you!!!

Come what may, and love it!!!

I love this message. It is so true the Lord knows our trials. My favorite line is "The 3rd we can do is inderstand the principle of compensation. The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those that love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. Although it may not come in the time we desire the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundred fold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."

I love that line!!! The Lord knows our trials. He counts every tear. He knows our hearts and knows what we can handle. He also knows the joy that our trials can bring us if we endure.

Why do boys think they can do anything?

So rafe keeps getting this brilliant idea that if he climbs to the top of our cupboard upstairs that he can get into the attic. We have tried everything, time outs, even a spanking, but nothing was working. So this last time, (yes dangerous I know, but we kept a close eye on him.) we left him there for about 20 minutes. I guess that did the trick, because he hasn't done it since. I guess he is going to be the "let the punishment fit the crime kid", better get my creative juices flowing.

Northwest Trek Fieldtrip!!!

Make a Smilebox slideshow

The Cedar Grove is Gone :(

Trees being taken.

My new non grove.

I am so sad. I use to have this beautiful cedar grove on my property and it is now gone. Here are the pics of my beloved trees on their way out. And no I am not a tree hugger, I just loved this grove, it was so pretty. I always said it was going to be my quiet place to pray. Then I had kids, so I never got to go out there alone to pray, but oh well maybe in another 30 years when the new trees grow I can. If I can still walk that far.

Yeah it's pink, so what?

Here is rafe the little boy who does not want to be called a ballerina in a pink hat. He is going to kill me for this picture some day.

Like Uncle, Like Nephew?

So here is a picture of my brother finding pop and "borrowing" some. He is about 2 or 3 in the pic.


Here is Brody "borrowing" some pop at age 4.

Mom (my mom) this post is for you!!!!

Ever wondered about temples?

Auction Slideshow

So apparently I am REALLY good at the medical stuff.

So apparently I am REALLY good at dealing with medical stuff. Not to toot my own horn or anything. Logan when he was trampled by the horse fractured his temporal bone. Which in turn made crebeal fluid leak our if his ear. (cerebeal fluid is the fluid that surrounds your brain.) Anyways, he has had to go back to the ear, nose and throat doc. every six weeks or so for checks ever since his accident. Ever since his accident he has had fluid in his ears. At first they said it was normal after this kind of trauma, but then when he still had fluid in his ear in november (his accident was in april) he said come back in March and if it is not gone then we will know something else is going on. So anyways we went back yesterday and not only is the fluid still there but there is more then before. Which doc said could be a sign of a broken Eustachian Tube. (Here is a link if you want to know what it does www.medicinenet.com/eustachian_tube_problems/article.htm). He said
"are you comfortable going to Seattle for a 2nd opinion?" I said
"we are going to Childrens, Huh?" he said
"how did you know?" i said
"trust me I know all about Childrens"
So anyways I am not sure what any of this means yet. I probably won't know until after the Childrens Appt. I do know that he does not have Eustachian Tube disfunction. He said that the Eustachian Tube is broken. Like I said not sure what that means yet, but I will let you know. This posts is mainly for grandmas. I am considering changing the caringbridge blog to the chronically hospital visiting sabins. HEHEHE

Hope For Little Hearts

I have rarely spoken on what we have been through with Brody, and how it has affected our family. I felt with the auction coming up it was a good time to post this. I have also heard from some close friends that people are afraid to ask me what is going on. Please don't be. I have to say that I know Jake doesn't like to talk about it, so if you have questions you can ask me. There are a lot of things I have learned over the past year and a half (Gosh it seems like way longer since he has been diagnosed.) At first we were overcome with a bittersweet feeling that he finally (after a lot of testing, like 3 years of it) was diagnosed. Then we realized that this was a lot more serious of a condition. It can't just be fixed with medicine. Medicine can supress the symptoms but ultimately he will need a heart transplant some day. Basically the stats are you have 100 kids 80 of them will recieve a heart in time. Of those 80 about 50 of them will live longer then 2 years after their transplant. We also realized he is at high risk for sudden cardiac failure. Which was hard. We noticed ourselves clinging more tightly to Brody. I was talking about it with my good friend Amy and she politely reminded me that any one of my kids could get hit by a car at anytime. (me and amy are always straight shooting with each other.) I grasped what she was saying, but I don't think I totally grasped it until Logan was trampled by a horse. I remember Jake carrying him in the house and he was bleeding out his ear. Jake put him in the van and took off. As soon as he left with out me, (what the heck was he thinking?) I called April to come sit with the other kids, when she answered the phone I just lost it. She hurried over, and on her way over I remember thinking and praying (I know this will sound very dramatic, but Logan was really hurt, and I wasn't sure if he was hemoragging or what. ) Please Heavenly Father don't take him. It was then I realized that Amy was right. No matter what any of us could lose someone at anytime. I know this sounds crazy but I am lucky that I know about Brody, at least it won't be totally unexpected.

I have realized over the last year or so that we should always live like that song by Diamond Rio "one more day". There are so many things that are less important in our lives. Things we have gotten rid of. It is different for every family, but for us it has been TV. We need to be building memories. Even if are children are well. In the song it says "Last night I had a crazy dream, a wish was granted just for me, I could wish for anything, I didn't wish for money or a mansion with a pool, I simply wished for one more day with you. One more day, one more time, one more suset baby I'd be satisfied, but then again I know what it would do, leave me wishing still for one more day with you. First thing I would do is pray for time to crawl, I'd unplug the telephone, turn the TV off, I'd hold you every second say a million I love yous, that's what i'd do with one more day with you." The song has made me realize what we have with gospel. We do have One More Day. We don't need to wish for one more day. We are a family forever. We need to live our covenants so we can have one more day with our families. It is but a short time apart. Now I am not saying that we are perfect. Sometimes we forget. Sometimes we have hard days or hard months. There are times when we feel sorry for ourselves, but then we remember the Plan of Happiness that our Heavenly Father has for us all and we know that if anything does happen to Brody that he will ALWAYS be our son, because of our Heavenly Fathers plan, and the covenants we have made (and strive to keep) in the temple.

We are so grateful for our eternal family, and the peace that it brings to us in our "down" times. We are grateful for each day we have with EACH member of our family. We know it is precious, and is a gift from our Heavenly Father. We know He has a plan for our family, and we are willing to follow the Lord's will. Whatever it may be. The Lord knows our hearts and knows what we want for our son, but HE is OUR Father, just like we know what is best for our children, HE knows what is best for our family, and ultimately for Brody.

Like I said earlier, I know this post sounds dramatic, and I didn't post it for attention. I posted it so people would know how we feel, how we are doing, and who they can talk to. To those of you who have listened to me rant and rave, or talk about Dr. appts. Thank you. Thanks for being my shoulder, not batting an eye if I cry and not making it awkward. We thank all of you for the prayers on our behalf. We love you all.

The Sabins

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My Big Belly

So Brody and I were cuddling in a blankie today and he says
"mom what is on your big bellies?"
I say pointing to my belly
"you mean my belly, a blanket."
He says
"no. your big bellies!"
I am sure you can figure out what he was talking about. So I say
"it is a blankie, (then pointing to my belly I say) is this my little belly?"
he said
"No it is your other big belly."
Nice I think it's time for bed, or time out, or something. HAHA Although that was kind of entrapment. Anyways If you are wondering why I post all the little funny things they say it is because this is my journal. I just print it out at the end of each month and stick it in a binder. That way when they have kids I can say look here is what you said to me. What comes around goes around. HEHEHE

Does that mean I am hot?

So we were having family movie night last night and the little thing that says who mage the movie came up. We were watching Milo and Otis, which is made by Columbia Pictures. So the Columbie Pictures lady comes up and Rafe says "it's mommy" all excited to see me on t.v. So getting back to my title, I personally don't think she is "hot". Jake says I was compared to her cuz she's hot. SO I though the title fit. And no I am not looking for comments on my "hotness" or lack of. HAHA